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They say you can die of a broken heart 💔 which is worse Living with one😥 ? Some people heal, some move on. Me? I’m still stuck right where he left me 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 p.s I still see you in all things that I love ✨✨Allahumma irhamhu wa rzuqni as salam✨ The Only thing can heal me is memory lost 💯

Then people say God took his pain away, and I don’t understand that at all. Why was he ever sick to begin with? Why did he have to suffer through such a horrible, horrible disease before anything was “taken away”? None of that makes sense to me. I’m agnostic. I don’t claim to know the answers, and I won’t pretend that I do. I hope there’s something more after this life I really do but hope isn’t knowledge. Right now, all I know is that he suffered, he’s gone, and I’m left suffering with questions no one can honestly answer……..#agnostic findacurefor #als I begged the doctors not to talk about him dying in front of him he looked straight at me with tears in his eyes to my soul . and I felt completely powerless. I begged #jesuschrist I prayed alongside the priest, hoping for anything some kind of mercy but death still called his name. He was so afraid, and I couldn’t save him. I miss him so much. I miss taking care of him, being there for him. Now the loneliness feels like it’s killing me everhday💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔If they had found a cure, he would still be here. So would everyone else who suffered from #illness that’s terminal what hurts the most. None of this had to end this way. I’m sorry I just can’t make peace with that…….. Tyshawn was strong I mean fearless ask anyone they will tell you …💔 nothing scared him and he protected his family would die for his family I used to ask him was he afraid to die he used to say no … I’m scared for yall 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

2025 the worse year because you left me 💔 & died on my birthday 💔 09/05 I never wanted to walk into a new year without you. The world kept moving forward, but my heart stayed right where you left it. When our oldest daughter said, Mama, he’s going into the new year in a new life, in a new body,” it broke something inside me. I cried in a way that came from my soul, not my eyes. I miss you more than words can carry. I loved you here, in this life, and I love you beyond it too. I’ve lived different lives with different people, but this one this life with you was my favorite. You were my protector my comfort, my true love . Losing you feels like losing a part of myself I can never get back. I feel so lonely and alone without you 😢 I haven’t prayed since you left. I asked the higher power to heal you, to make you better, and when that didn’t happen, my faith shattered along with my heart. I don’t know how to speak to the higher power anymore when the one thing I begged for was taken from me. All I know is that loving you was the most real thing I’ve ever known, and losing you is the deepest pain I’ve ever carried 💔💔 💔💔💔I'm at peace with how I took care of him, all the way to his last breath. I know I loved him fully. I know I never left his side. But I'm still so sad that I couldn't help him, that I couldn't save him from death😢😢😢😢

#holidays strip away the distractions and leave you face to face with just how alone you’ve become. I spent a long time being #agnostic , searching and unsure. Now I’m converting to #islam . Last Christmas was my final one, and I shared it with Ty, which makes it especially special and meaningful to me. I’ll leave the rest unspoken . Love you Ty 💙 always loved never forgotten #findacurefor#als

Had to skip this Chrismas this year 😢 The things I want for Christmas can’t be bought 💔 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 #findacurefor#als Merry Christmas, my love. I never imagined this would be our reality. You always said this might be your last holiday, and now I’m facing my first Christmas without you. It hurts I cried all day long. From sickness and health to death parting us, I kept my promise tho 😢 I love you endlessly. #findacurefor#ALS

I miss this beautiful smile so much …. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 The world would be a better place if many could smile like him and even tho my smile has disappeared & my heart is so broken without him 💔 It goes to show internal peace is within regardless of any situation… I love you Ty with all my heart I can’t wait to see you again 😢😢😢😢 The worse part of our story 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 Blue hearts for you my handsome angel/soulmate 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙 your story lives through me and I’ll forever fight for a cure for #als

I miss you baby I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you 😢😢😢 There’s no way God needed you more than I did 💔💔💔💔💔 I stay up all night searching for answers trying to find something that proves there’s an afterlife, a paradise, heaven, eternal life, anything that feels real enough to believe in. Something that tells me, with some sense of realism, that I’ll find my way back to you.😪😪

💯what @Rod Wave said in this song 💯 I carry him in every step I take 💔 🙏🏾 💔It’s exhausting to wear a smile when my heart is breaking inside. If my love alone could have saved Ty , he would have lived forever. 💔💔💔💔💔💔 #findacurefor#als #tyshawnwife in every lifetime

#Findacurefor#als We love you so much Ty 💔💔💔💔💔💔 hold you down from here 🫶🏾

Always Loved … Never forgotten 🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒🔒💍💍💍💍💍💍💍💍💍💍💍 #findacurefor #als

I lost my mind, The day he died Because loss is disorienting Period💔💔 I'm exhausted from explaining my grief, justifying myself to those who just see it in black and white 💔💔 I don't need to hear he would want me to be happy I can't tolerate phrases like he's in a better place I need people who get it,Who can sit in the dark with me Unless you can bring back the dead The only thing I need is for you to love me through it💯💯 I don't want to explain how my journey is different from yours, BECAUSE I KNOW ALL OF OUR JOURNEYS ARE DIFFERENT. IF YOU CHERISH MEMORIES AND BELIEVE YOUR LOVED ONE IS IN A BETTER PLACE,that’s wonderful For me, the “better place” would always be right beside us. And If they were really somewhere better, why does it hurt so much to be here without them? 😢😢😢😢 #findacure for #als # I would love to care for you again this time I’ll do it much better 😢😢😢💯💯💯 #imy #ily #mywholeheart 🫶🏾

Memories might be one of my favorite parts about life Thankyou for them 🤍 fightforacurefor#als 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 I never stopped to give myself credit because caring for Ty was simply what love meant to me. It wasn’t a choice it was my heart’s instinct. But now, looking back, I see the strength it took to face each day alone, watching someone I loved so much fight something I couldn’t fix. As the disease grew stronger, I did too, even when it broke me inside. Ty reminded me every single day that I was all he needed, and that gave me the courage to keep going. I promised him I’d be there from the first moment to the last, and I kept that promise. If I could, I’d care for him all over again, without hesitation. Now, I hold that love close to my heart, proud of the way I stood by him. all I can do is tell myself that I did it I kept my promise and try to find pride in the love that broke my heart💔💔💔💔#terminalillness #ALS #wewon Ty 💪🏾The disease didn’t win

All the effort and care I put into taking care of Tyshawn inspired me to dedicate myself to the nursing field as a registered nurse. Through that experience, I discovered my passion for helping others and saving lives. Caring for Tyshawn taught me so much from tracheal suctioning and G-tube feedings to monitoring vitals, respiratory care, occupational therapy, and many other essential nursing skills. Because of that journey, I am now fully committed to pursuing a career in nursing and continuing to make a difference in people’s lives. Always fighting to find a cure for #als Ty #nurse To all the nurses who have ever cared for Ty I’m truly grateful. Your compassion, dedication, and support mean more than words can express. Even the nurses who offered help or shared advice virtually, your kindness made a difference. Thank you for every act of care, every word of encouragement, and every moment you gave. #Grateful #nurse appreciation #ThankYou💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙 Ty you are the strongest man I ever known 💪🏾 I miss you so much , but your memory lives on in everything I do. THIS 4 YOU Ty

Appreciate you Kalan frfr, 💔. fly high 💔baby. I promise to keep your name alive, but for now rest peacefully. I promise to hold you down, even from here.#findacurefor#als